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stuck on salutation

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stuck on salutation There I sat, watching the spacer blink in front of me, over and over and over again.  I had a million things I wished to write and ask, but when the time came, I couldn't write a single word.   I was attempting to write a letter to my biological mother.  My social worker had advised me to prepare a letter and a few photos to send in case she was open to communication. How do I even start this letter,  I wondered.  Dear...mother?  Mom?  Or maybe just... hello?   Nothing felt right or natural.  Maybe I could just skip the salutation and dive right in.  But then what do I dive into?  My name is...?   Do I use my American name or my Korean name?  If I couldn't even begin the letter, how could I possibly complete it? I rolled my chair back from my desk and sat with my thoughts for a while.  I considered all the things I wanted to know.  Why did she give me up?  Did she know where my biolo...